Okay, so the
ITV promo clip is out there, and I am 12 hours away from starting a life without sugar, well artificial and the processed stuff. How do I feel? Terrified, truth be told. I love all things naughty, that is what got me into this mess in the first place.
Something has changed in me over the past year. Brought on by dear friends who I have seen struggle with terminal illness without so much of a moan. It has broke my heart to watch their pain, and more so knowing how much they cherish moments when they are pain free. Yet I abuse my body, filling it with sugar and fats, and barely exercising. The thing is I did't notice it day to day because I am always busy with life, children, housework and full-time work. The reality is though unless I start appreciating my body, I too am more likely to suffer from Type 2 Diabetes, heart failure, or Cancer.
It's funny really, I have dedicated my life to helping others get where they want to be mentally. But, I have a big weakness in looking after myself. Often feeling frazzled when I get in from work, and with two teenage sons I take quick options, take-away being everybody's favourite, no preparation and very little washing up it always seemed a good idea. Then there was melt into the sofa relaxation moments with a bar of chocolate. Well let me tell you, it added up over the years to a very unhealthy waist-line.
One of my dearest friends said to me before I went to LA 'Make sure you are doing this for you'. Believe me I am, yes my weight upsets me, more so does people's attitudes which shatter me on the inside, but my health is the reason I am doing this, to live a healthy life, as to not do a dis-justice to all of those that have not got the opportunity to do something about their health. So yes, this will be the biggest challenge of my life, and one I will no doubt need a lot of support on, especially in the beginning. However, I have a good tool box, I know how to set goals, and to take one day at a time. I know I have to focus on me, and get up when I am tired and push myself further. I am thankful to GMB team, the experts and the beautiful ladies to whom I share this journey, their knowledge, support and friendship is just what I need to put me on a healthier future path.
So, now I have my food planner from the lovely Cheryl Forberg, and I have stocked the cupboards with spices and herbs. Breakfast will probably be my hardest meal as I usually skip it. The New Year, Healthier Me tells me otherwise, I now have to make it a proper meal. Exercise is another barrier as I often feel too tired, so I have decided to set up a
exercise buddy network, which has proved popular. Now I get to make new friends and be held accountable to get out my front-door, no pressure there then!
Until the next time I blog, farewell. Just think, I will be going cold turkey next time you hear from me, so forgive me if I am sobbing and blogging from the bathtub! Oh, and don't forget to tune into ITV's GMB on Monday the 5th of Jan and follow our progress. You can even take part too with everything you need going online.
Happy New Year to you all!
